Wish me luck

I will be starting out on a new job tomorrow.

After eight months of staying at home to take care of our kid, this will be a new thing for me to deal with. I'm not scared with the job, I'm scared of getting homesick and suddenly missing our son. I'm scared that he may look for my hug when he wakes up from a not so nice sleep.

Truth is, I'm not really scared. Just a bit sad that I'd only have the evenings to share it with him.

Sniff, sniff. I'll just give you a really good hug in the morning and make sure that it lasts until I come back from work.

Just sharing

This will be short.

Just a few minutes ago, our son tried out his first two steps without holding on to anything. And this was really such a happy sight for me because I can really tell how scared he still is to try out his walking capabilities. Now for the first time, there were no fear in his eyes, just eagerness to get somewhere.

*Sigh*

Happy, happy day!

After thought

Today, I was given a job offer.

I had set in mind certain things. I expected that this day will be a sweet ending to the many times I have been interviewed. I assumed that I will go home victorious, knowing that I have been led to what's best for me.

It didn't turn out the way I planned it in my head. But then maybe that's just the thing. I had my hopes up and pretended that it will go my way. It was only when I got home that felt so ashamed of my initial reaction. How could I have been so ungrateful? The truth is I wasn't qualified at all yet I was considered for something else because they thought I can still have it my way in the near future. Who was I to complain when I have been promised a prosperous future? Shouldn't I just trust that indeed my life will not be harmed at all and that a great amount of favor has always surrounded me.

So now I say, yeah, I am very much blessed. And today, today is just a great day.

The boy and the clown

Zye's thought: "Hmmm..I never thought this Ronald guy likes striped clothes too...we kinda match...I should have my shirt changed. I wonder where he had his hair done. Sweet!"

Picture taken just last Sunday.

Great hopes for tomorrow

I will be up for a job offer tomorrow. I am hoping that they will be giving me an offer than is more than what I have set my mind to. Oh, I've set my price lower because I didn't want to get disappointed. Like what I always say, Expect the worst and hope for the best. I go for the latter part most of the times.

Wish me luck!!!!

Here I go again...

My husband and I just watched Max Payne a few hours ago. I'm not going to review the movie because it didn't really create a big, lasting impact in my head although I'm pretty sure there's gonna be a part two of it. I thought Mark Wahlberg is turning out like a Nicolas Cage type but my husband was right, I think he is trying to be more like a Bruce Willis kind.

So what I would really want to talk about are the films whose trailers I saw and liked. First on my list of movies to watch out for is Disney's "Bolt". I love the plot that Bolt (oh, the lead character is a dog by the way) thought that his whole life was for real when the truth is he is just playing a role in this TV thing. Next on my list is Brad Pitt's "The Curious case of Benjamin Button". Honestly, I would just like to know how this movie will end seeing that Benjamin's life was backward in a different sense. Laslty, (but I'm not yet decided on this one) is "Twilight" which I think is a love story with magic or something else. The trailer was kind of short so I didn't really get to absorb if the characters were supernatural or something else.

So does this mean I'm back to my addiction? Hmmm...yes, I am in deep thought.

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Note: I now know that "Twilight" is a lovestory between a teenage girl and a vampire. There. I honestly thought he was a werewolf during the trailer.

Photo fun

Eat your heart out, John Lloyd! The heir to your throne is here! hehehe...

Yeah, twas a great wedding. Definitely front cover material! *Wink*

My hubby is such a heart breaker! *Loveyou, dhe!*

Hubby enjoyed doing these from the Photofunia site. Posting the best of what we came up with.

One word tag

I snagged this one from Pat. It's just like those quick pop quiz that you'd have to say the first thing that comes into your mind...but in just one word.


1. Where is your cell phone? bed
2. Your significant other? Dong
3. Your hair? longer
4. Your mother? laugh
5. Your father? hardwork
6. Your favorite thing? food
7. Your dream last night? none
8. Your favorite drink? coffee
9. Your dream/goal? entrepreneur
10. The room you’re in? bedroom
11. Your hobby? writing
12. Your fear? death
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? europe
14. What you’re not? overweight
15. Muffins? chocolate
16. One of your wish list items? nikon
17. Where you grew up? Pasig
18. The last thing you did? tape
19. What are you wearing? haltered
20. Favorite gadget? cellphone
21. Your pets? none
22. Your computer? neo
23. Your mood? hungry
24. Missing someone? none
25. Your car? blue
26. Something you’re not wearing? shoes
27. Favorite store? rds
28. Like someone? yup
29. Your favorite color? blue
30. When is the last time you laughed? today
31. Last time you cried? month

You can snag this as well. :)

Expectations

What is life?
It is joy and sadness wrapped together.
It is the laughter and tears happening
at the same time.
It is pain and comfort
running in circles
Trying to find a way to your senses.

It is your greatest dream and your wildest
fear caught up in a web.
It is your success and defeat
glued up to bring the best of who you are.
It is the best and worst days of the year
rewinding in the blink of an eye,
giving you the glimpse of what's ahead.

Life is just what you expect it to be...
and more...
even more.

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.jdd. 10172008
getting ready for what is to come.

The 7-years that was....

Like what I have said in my previous post, some of my college friends and I met up last September 23, 2008. It was funny because like what Cez said, it has been seven years since we've seen each other. I couldn't believe it's been that long. But it was nice because we picked up things as if it was just last month.

I think we were eleven in the group. Let me see, that's me, Cez, Che, Monti, Lean, Carlo, Rhine, Razel, Eric, Marvin -- nah, make that ten. We ended up being together because of several group projects which had to be done simultaneously. That and our organization as well.

It would have been nice if I could post our old pictures and compare it with how we look right now. Some of the skinny ones before are now on the chubby side, some who were chubby before added even more weight, some lost a few pounds, but mostly everyone looked almost the same.

Eric and Marvin weren't able to make it while Razel made it while we went out for coffee. We spent the night singing our hearts out at Kamarada and hung out at Starbucks afterwards. It was nice to have seen everyone again and we were kidding ourselves that hopefully the next reunion will happen sooner and not count another seven years again. Maybe next time we'd all find the time to visit Monti and his family who is already living in Singapore. That would be nice.

The thing about reunions is that you get to relive the good old days and remember how simple life was back then. It's also a very good way of rekindling friendships and assuring one another that we still have each other inspite of the distance. Until the next one guys, best of luck to everyone!

From L-R: Lean, hubby Dong, me, Che, Razel, Carlo, Rhine, Cez and Monti

A short rant

Hmmm....

I still have tons of things to do today. And since I need to finish most of it, I decided to bring my tasks with me as I wait for my husband in the mall.

Since it was still going to be a hefty two-hour wait, I did my writings at Bo's coffee shop in Robinson's galleria. First, it was a good wifi spot. Second, their coffee isn't too expensive as compared to the others. (Although the coffee strength can get better) and lastly it wouldn't cost you anything if you need to plug your laptop to have it charged.

I figured I'll use my credit card instead of the cash that I had. What do you know, they don't charge it in your card not unless the minimum order is P200. It was the first time I encountered such rule in a coffee shop. Maybe it was wrong of me to assume that they don't have a minimum. But I have used my card in so many (and I mean many!) coffee shops and none of them needed a minimum amount to be able to charge your purchase.

I wondered if that was really the case or that guy really didn't know how to do the charging thing. How can I not think that when it took him 5 minutes before he told me that they had a minimum amount before you charge the purchase in your credit card. Hmm....I should have gone to Figaro instead.

And then...ZYE turned one!

Long overdue post. But the memory of it is still fresh in my mind.

Last October 4, Zye turned one. There was no fancy party, not even a home gathering for that matter. We planned a simple day ahead for our families to share together.

Inspite the fact that Zye will not be having a first birthday party, I was still excited. Maybe it was because I have been reminded of my not so good condition before I gave birth and here he is now -- strong, happy, actively crawling, walks confidently when his hand can hold on to something, shouts and claps at his own definition of happiness while his teeth (he's got three now!) peeps through.

Wow. And I thought that it has been ages. But here he is celebrating his 12th month in this world. We wanted something new and diverted from the usual KTV bonding to a few games of bowling at Green Valley Bowling Alley (the one near Valle Verde). It was hilarious! While everyone else were busy figuring out how to get a perfect game, we were busy laughing our hearts out as some have never gone bowling. We counted the number of strikes that we get (collectively) since most of the times our bowling balls end up finding their way to the canal. Zye enjoyed the colorful balls after the game. He was asleep while the whole game was going on.

After bowling, we went for a good, quiet dinner at Grilla Libis. Well, we actually dined at Old Spaghetti house (which was the non-smoking area located at the ground floor) but ordered food from Grilla (second floor, smoking area). We got their ultimate barbeque platter and sizzling veggies (which was more like pinakbet on a sizzling plate). Some of the boys got a few rounds of drink so we got the spicy sausage trio, cheese sticks and calamares while chatting our hearts out.

A few minutes while the family conversation was getting started we decided to light the candle on Zye's cake and sing him his birthday song. My sister brought this racing car themed birthday cake which we all loved (including Zye!) The cake wasn't too sweet that we all ended up taking off most of the icing on it (Zye was first to taste the icing)

We decided to call it a night at around 11 in the evening happy with how the day turned out. I think more than anything else, each one of us just feels so blessed that Zye is turning out pretty well. The bonding that our families have is also something that we are all thankful for. Nothing beats celebrating with them. The day was just perfect.

We love you Zye! Mommy and Daddy will do their best to give you the best. And just in case you don't always get the best of everything, we'll make sure that our love will be more than enough to fill up all the spaces between better and best.

You are our miracle, God's gift. Our little angel in disguise.

Back on track...

...hopefully.

I haven't been blogging lately for several reasons and that's mostly due to chores, errands and every now and then oco moments (read: obsessive compulsive). I usually blog in the day so that I get to take care of hubby as soon as he gets home (which is around 7:30 in the evening) The humid weather is so not helping so I end up just playing with Zye instead of staying in front of the laptop. At night, I get the guilty feeling whenever I see my hubby and son playing so I end up bonding with them rather than blogging. Not that I would choose the latter over a quality time with my family. I'm just saying this as my way of telling my blogging friends why I haven't bee around lately.

Oh yeah, I have to say as well that I have been busy with exams and job interview as well. I don't want to give the details right now because nothing is final yet. All I know is that somehow I am excited as to what God has in store for me. I have a lot of fears about working and leaving my son solely to the care of his yaya. But like what I said, I am yet to figure out what's ahead of me. Miracles do happen you know.

Flower Power

Thank you Carla for this tag. Sorry it took years (exaggerating here) before I was able to do this.
The rules of the award are:
1. The winner can put the logo on her blog.
2. Link the person you received your award from.
3. Nominate at least 7 other blogs.
4. Put links of those blogs on yours.
5. Leave a message on the blogs of the girls you've nominated.

I'm passing this award to the ladies who have continously visits this site even if I haven't been able to visit them the past few weeks: Rocks, Eds, issa, nol, Irmee, Concon and Mari.

Choices

"One door will lead you to happiness, the other will lead you to sorrow.

Which one will you choose?"

Round and Round

Our son adores ceiling fans! I'm not sure if it's the circling motion that it creates or the fascination on the fan's design but for whenever he sees one, it will surely make his day brighter.

I have to admit though that more than just the ventilation, ceiling fans can be a great way to spice up the room visually. Craftmade fans can never go wrong because it is designed to blend with all the furnitures that you have at home. I adore this one bronze fan (Midoro) that I think will go exceptionally well with our living room. The city contempo style of the minka aire fans are perfect for the modern homes particularly if you have an industrial theme in one of your rooms. I think it can even be a nice house warming present for a bachelor's pad.

Yes. This is what happens during a rainy Friday morning. Your son's fascination can turn out to an on-line window shopping. I wish I'd get to see a glimpse of the sun today. Otherwise, I'd be drooling over a lot more things the whole day through!

A week of good news

I have to be honest, we are currently having a financial setback and I can actually point this all out to --- the not so good economic status of the U.S. Well, of course this is the more general problem but I wouldn't even dare talk about the details.

My husband and I have decided that since our son is already a year old, maybe it's okay that I get back to work once more. This time the goal is long term, focusing on our son's future and not sacrificing what I would really want to do in life.

TEACH. That's what I love to do. So I'm thinking if I will be looking for a career that handles corporate trainings or shoud I stick to the real deal academics. Being a mom now, I realized that becoming a teacher would help me more in my son's growth and development. Then I thought, what the heck...I'll just pray about it. Besides, God always knows what's best for me.

So I asked for guidance from the Lord. I allowed Him to lead me to the path that will help us carry out our financial problem as well as our concerns for the future. A few days after, I stumbled on two job openings for a teaching position.

Last Wednesday, one of the schools contacted me and asked me to come for an exam and interview. I was so happy yet scared at the same time. I prayed once more because I wanted to be sure that this is the job that is meant for me, the answer to the one I've been praying for. God's answer was complete, concrete, right to the point. This is what He gave me:

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart" Jeremiah 29:11-13

I cried. The relief I felt after reading that was so refreshing it's as if I can do anything. It was good news that gave me another leap of faith.

Today, I will be having my second interview. Tonight, I'll let you know what happened. Right now, I just feel so blessed.

Truth or consequence

In any relationship, it's always the trust issue that gets to be complicated. No matter how much love there seem to be, you can never really tell what's going on whenever you are not with your partner. Am I saying that one should always be cautious? Of course not. You fall in love because you trust that your partner loves you as much and that he will never do anything to hurt you. But in such a deceiving world, temptations will always be around the corner.

Take the instance of my friend whose soon-to-be husband is in the states due to a job assignment. She told me that she received this anonymous e-mail saying that her fiancee is seeing someone. She dismisses that thought but kept on bugging me if she should trust her instincts or not . I told her that she can try and get the services of New Jersey Private Investigators or the Las Vegas Private Investigators (word is that her fiancee gets to go to a whole lot of places) if she really wants to know the truth. The thing is she has to be emotionally ready as well to know whatever the truth is.

I hope that her instincts are wrong. If the rumors are true, then I'd hate to see the effect of it. Hopefully, they'll be able to solve this problem in the soonest time possible. Will the truth set them free? I'm not sure. All I know is that the truth certainly comes with a price.

In your eyes

Look at me
see what I have become
my memory doesn't even want to serve me
my soul is haunted
while my heart drips off tears

Look at me
I never knew how sad I was until
I found out how much I've loved
I never measured myself
now I need my worth just to go on

Look at me
will you not find out on your own?
would you still need my question?
There's nothing to choose from,
there's nothing I can offer

Look at me
because this is what you will have,
this is what I can give,
just me...
all of me.

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-jdd 10.04.08-
for the confused soul.
not for guidance,
just a reflection of your heart.

After 7 years....

A day before my birthday, my husband and I met up with som of my college friends. It came as a shock that it has been 7 years that we have not seen each other. Has it been that long? Maybe. But it didn't seem that long. It seemed as if it was just last month that we last saw each other.

Of course, I am exaggerating. I'll have more stories about this reunion. Meanwhile, I am yet to plant kisses on our son who will be celebrating his first birthday in....5...4...3......

Wer na kyo?

"Mami...Dadi..psalubong h?Tenkyu. Lab, Zye"

Wazzup?

Haven't been around here lately due to a lot of personal stuff and as always, I have a lot of catching up to do. Missed doing the usual rounds and my daily/weekly roundup mainly due to issues not entirely of my own.

So I've got a handful of stories about my birthday, my story of our son's birthday (not-so) dilemna, my career confusion and some other crisis we (or should I say mine alone?) are currently going through.

YES. I've got a lot up on my sleeves. But it's all gotta wait because tomorrow is Zye's first birthday and I want to spend more time with him.

SAYANG. The dream raffle is not until the end of October. Harhar.