Confessions of a misis

I found it more appropriate to post this on my personal blog. I felt it was more of my personal reflection though it speaks of my family life. Feel free to read and comment on it. Share this journey with me.

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Auto-votes....transform!

This is it. Most awaited, to-be-judged, let's see what happens, hoping it'll work election.

We fell in line 8:00 AM hoping to finish early. But the line was quite long already. Patiently waiting, my mom, sister and I already had our paper filled out with our name and precinct number. Half-way before getting to a shaded area, we saw people saying "kailangan daw ng number" ("we need a number"). So we asked what number, apparently it was the number corresponding to your name on the list of voters. Perfect, now we are really ready to vote.

Getting at the gate/opening of the voting area, we were suddenly asked the question, "Okay lang ba sa inyo paunahin ang mga senior citizen?" ("Is it okay if the senior citizen's go first?") That's not even a question for me, it's more of a polite way of saying, let them go first and we really wouldn't mind until we saw that almost half of the line had senior citizen.

Great. They don't give them a special lane so naturally this is what's gonna happen. I told the peace and order guy, Kuya Melvin, (who I personally know because he is our neighbor) that we need to create a system on how things are gonna get done. I mean, come on, some of these people have been in line much earlier than all the other senior citizens. I suggested that our cluster be divided into two lines: one line for the non-senior citizens and another for the senior citizens. After dividing the line we alternately (by twos) took our turns in voting. It was much faster, more organized, and it gave everyone a fair chance.

You see, it's not really that Filipinos don't want change or don't want to follow accordingly. Sometimes, you got to know how to explain things to them. Let them know how they will benefit from it and sincerely make them feel that you are actually doing this to make this faster, better and easier.

No, we are not stupind voters. I think more than anything we are just too hopefully. Some hope that choosing the lesser evil will bring a better future, some hope that choosing the less popular may collectively be others' choice as well, while some just hope that whoever wins can bring about change. It's not really about who's gonna be the next president. It's really about you being ready to do your part.

Are you up to the challenge of becoming the best Filipino citizen?

If you say no, you have no right to complain.

If you say yes, then go and change our country.

Mabuhay ang Pilipino!!!

Starting 2010

I know. It's already the start of the second quarter so you're probably thinking, why start now. Well, let's just day that 2009, inspite of the many things that happened, was centered on personal stuff and concerns plus the not-so-great work schedule had me not writing for almost a year. There goes my blogging dreams. But our family adventures has started again and I believe it is the best time to start telling our adventures again.

This is an intro. You just got to wait for our first adventure. 2010 has just begun.

Good shot!

Our latest family picture taken last July20, 2009

Back at square one

It is one thing to break up with a person. It's another thing to actually get back to where you were before. The heartache can be a nerve-wrecking experience but to actually go back to same rut is another thing altogether.

So am I someone who doesn't believe in second chances? Not at all. But when second chances have been given, when demands have been made and when all expectations have been laid out and still without any development or changes, then there is no such thing as second chances. There shouldn't be any hope for change. There should just be plain acceptance.

What is to be accepted? That the relationship should not have taken place to begin with. That it was better to stay as friends, having the time of your life, no commitments, just good company with no strings attached. Sometimes we indulge too much with the thought of being in love and translate great friendships to be true love. We have to learn to guard our hearts to not be in love with the thought of being in love for us to be able to think well and discern what is in front of us.

If there is anything more excruciating than seeing someone get back to a not-so-great situation is the fact that loved ones are hurting as well. When family and friends get to see the picture in a larger frame, face-to-face with the loose ends of what seems to be the an endless heartbreaking dilemna. It is not about forgiveness, it is no longer about forgetting the past. It is dealing with reality and what lies ahead and seeing those bumps along the way that can only be seen by the eyes of those that are on the more objective side.

It is a never ending discussion. But I am not resting my case.

Flashbacks

We've experienced quite a whirlwind of events the past couple of months. My husband's grandfather, after being hospitalized for almost two months, succumbed to cancer last July. It was painful but the Lord still made things beautiful in so many ways. Hubby celebrated his 28th birthday, which I will be posting separately. Family and friends visited for a short stay and we have gone to and fro to different places just to meet up with them. Issues from the past came haunting us back (not our issue, happy to say) that added to the pile of emotions that was already stacking up high. The three of us went down with the flu and movement of office sites, both for me and hubby, is happening soon.

So I guess you can't really blame me for just choosing to sleep more even if my heart really wanted to find time to write. It was just physically draining. But I'm over it. Hopefully, I won't get caught up with anything else again.

Shout out!

I am experiencing more ways than one to be heard. I am officially getting addicted to plurking and twitting. Although how I wish I can do this more often in a day but nevertheless I still post a few things before I sleep during the day. (READ: Working at night)

So which do I like best?Plurking or twitting? Both. Plurk actually leads me to realize how I am feeling at the moment: loves, likes, wishes, prays, hopes, and the list goes on. Twitting allows me to just say anyhting out loud while I see how my friends are doing. Its somehow a forum where people just holler or holler back. It's like group plurking I suppose.

I'm hoping to have more energy in getting to my laptop and connecting to the world bcause of these two new past times. That of course plus my blog.

Sweet!

R u Online?

It is amazing how technology can just think of things to get people connected round the clock. When friendster first came around, people are just ecstatic to find their long, lost friends (READ: People whom you barely remembered or vice versa who suddenly reminisces memory all for the sake of adding up to the number of friends tally. Ha!) because of the birth of social networking online.

The thing is, as the days and months and years go by, the idea of social networking evolved. You now have your blog sites on top of your yahoo groups and your forums, add to that facebook, multiply, hi5, then plurk then twitter. I think I am even far from what is out there because definitely my list is but too short.

So why the sudden analysis of such things? Simply because one of my friends actually asked why I didn't have a facebook account. Yes, my path to realization was led by that simple question and I honestly did wonder why I never even found the time to do so.

Then I made a short list of the things that I have been busy updating: friendster, my two websites, our multiply site, 3 e-mail accounts (excluding that from work), wordpress, on-line photoalbum...not included here are my tasks as a mom and as a wife. Can you just imagine how I would actually look like if I do it all- over at the same time?

Your guess is as good as mine. In the meantime, just visit our family blog and let's take it from there. Who knows, you mind end up blogging and relating to the world instead of just craddling yourself in the confinement of the social network you are in.

Still no facebook. Even after this blog post.

Blog list

Things to watch out for in the days to come:

1. Desserts and more. My top favorite sweet finds -- from ice creams, to cupcakes, to shakes.
2. Movie list 1. My all-time favorite movies
3. Movie list 2. Movies that I wouldn't want to miss on the big screen. Upcoming flicks for this year.
4. Gadgets and gizmos. Latest trends in technology. Probably have this in parts.

There. That's my to do list as well. See you around and comment on these topics when I finish them. Maybe we can exhcange list too!

Until then.

Chocolate time

Can you imagine how yummy that chocolate was? Oh, those eyes just gave it away!

MVP 2020

He can't get enough basketball -- little ball, big ball, orange, black

He shouts when he sees somebody do a jump shot,

He practices dribbling,

And now he's wearing a jersey.

Who ever wins the NBA Finals...I don't care much

because we found our MVP!!!

Unacceptable

I can't believe how I have not been around to write something for the last two months!

This is so not me. After all the things that has happened, the least that I can do is to at least post a picture every week to sum up what has been up with me and our family. Sometimes, I just cant find the energy to do it. But it is more depressing, seeing your blogging friends visit your blog without any new content. Not giving them something to read about, nothing to digest.

I have to do something about this...SOON!

My emotional weekend

The weekend that passed by was not so good for me. It was emotionally tormenting that I felt my heart just shattered and the better part of me didn't even want to exert effort in picking up the pieces.

I will not even dare tell what happened and why I have been subjected to such an experience. But I believe it had to happen to finally (Yes, this is the final story to this issue) figure out what to do, to have all the cards laid down, to pinpoint the source of pain and literally burn it all down.

But it wasn't easy. I had to guard my heart for two days even if that meant sleeping with tears.

I cannot contain my hurt that I can feel a throbbing pain in my chest. All the more I did not even want to talk about it anymore and just wanted to move on after I have, seemingly, erased the whole event from my memory bank. Of course, it was far from happening.

So I had put it into writing. Pouring to my soul's content every detail that my poor heart is feeling. Setting expectations, demanding for what is mine in the first place. The result was a shirt-drenching experience, having to be face-to-face with bitterness and sadness all at the same time. The misunderstandings of where I am coming from versus what the other person is assuming all blended up to become this climatic scene which was won over by LOVE.

Yes. It was a happy ending. And I wouldn't want it any other way. We tore the old pages and started with a brand new sheet on this one, starting off from where I wanted to begin, learning each detail that I could possible know,and saying out loud my thoughts on everything else that has got to do with this not-so-good episode. Will it be different this time? It should be. Because I don't want to go through the same ordeal twice.

When everything else fails, LOVE is the answer.

Missing

I missed writing...so much. I can find time, but I honestly can't find the energy to get in front of my laptop to update my blog. Night shift is taking its toll. I can barely sleep well. My number of sleep has been reduced from 7 hours to 4 hours even if the airconditioning unit is on.

Moving on...

I am happy to share to the world that, thanks to my brother-in-law Nikki, our wireless router is now od use. We are now on wifi! Yeah! No longer limited due to cables. Such a nice way as I get myself back to the blogsphere.

So there...just for starters. Back again, hopefully.

Happyness...

For the Nth time this morning, I watched the movie "The pursuit of happyness". My husband and I totally love this movie and I'm pretty sure that most people feel the same way. It has been elevated and tied up to my all-time favorite movie that is "Dead Poets Society".

Is happiness just to be pursued? Is it non-existent? The movie was so real. It reflected pains, dreams, struggles, disappointments, fears. It showed life the way it is most of the times -- challenging, hopeless, hard to the core. For the number of the times that I've watched it, I have come up with a few reflections of my own.

1. Life is like a rubix cube.
During my high school days, I have been addicted to the rubix cube. Studied the techniques on how to play it and later on mastered my way on completing all six colors of the cube. So why do I say that life is like this cube? It's different colors signifies the different aspects in our life -- emotional , financial , physical , spiritual and mental. When we are faced with a challenging situation, sometimes these colors get all mixed up that our life may seem to be too chaotic. But then you have to remember that just like the rubix cube, it can still be fixed. You just need a whole lot of perseverance and energy to channel the negativities in your life to something more useful. Don't allow bad situations rule over your life. There will always be a way out of it.

2. We are all interns.
Life is like an internship. It is one long journey of learning, competition, and doing things to get to the top. It is a process of proving yourself to the world even if it means getting up immeditely even after getting hit by a car or preparing coffee for people who you think have a better life than yours.

3. You've got to have a motivating factor.
It was Chris' son that motivated him to pursue a better life. Sometimes, it's all we ever need just to keep moving on. Whatever it is that pushes us to become better persons would definitely help us in keeping our eye towards our goal. Never let your eyes wander from your insipiration.

4. Some parts of our life can really be called "being stupid".
Yes, just like when Chris said that "This part of my life is called being stupid" we also fall into such situations. We need to. Many times we think we know everything only to find out that we don't. Of course we have to make sure that our stupidity will lead us to further knowledge and not to a bottomless pit of stupid events.

5. If time machines were real, I'm one lucky girl.
After having major times when stupidity was prioritized, how I wish there were parts of my life that I can undo only to make it much better.

6. Trust in a must.
Just as Christopher trusted his father that everything will be alright, we have to trust as well that no matter how bad things may seem, everything will fall into its proper place. The sun will always shine after the rain. It can't always be a stormy day all year round.

I am happy. But I still have a lot of things that I hope and dream for. This part of my life is called the "Trying to be successful" (with a tagline probably of ways to earn more money...hahaha). There have been days that we don't have money in our pockets, there had been times when we literally don't know how to get by our expenses. But we are far from sleeping in a public comfort room and that alone is proof that we are still blessed.

Sniff...Sniff

Last week, Zye had the colds and cough (slightly bordering to asthma). After recovering, hubby had some rashes, slight fever and colds. Now, I'm having my share of the virus, getting a little headache from the runny nose.

Hay....

Of course, I'm hoping I'd be better before the week ends.

Cravings

I want this. My taste buds are longing for these sweet little bite sized chocolate covered vanila ice cream. Either this or Mom and Tina's Dark Toblerone Torte Cup. Hmmm.

Shopping anyone?

In this day and age of crisis, there is only one solution:

Buy and Sell.

As most of my fellow n@wie moms have adviced me, it's time that I make some money by selling stuff that is within my means and reach. So I am officially inviting everyone to visit our store (that is finally getting somewhere!) It would be nice too if you can leave a comment or add me up as one of your contacts.

Thank God for bright ideas and the good people that are ready share such.

Super ME wannabe

What happens to a woman who is a mom of a 1-year 4-months old active boy, a wife, an employee, a blogger, a youth coordinator and a church's scribe who is all of a sudden left by the helper whom she thought was still on the same track as she is?

**TOINK**

As if I hit my head on a concrete wall and I didn't even saw it coming.

So this is me and my plight to finding another job that would actually work out even if I get a new helper. All of a sudden reality gushed and I am faced with choices that I don't even want to choose. But for the love of my family, there is nothing I won't do. Make that, there is nothing I can't do. I wouldn't even know how in the world I get to juggle everything else that's happening and still manage to keep my sanity. Most of the times I'm just happy that I still get to sleep soundly (maybe because I'm soooo tired...harhar!) and not worry about what's to come the next day.

I'm no super woman.....because I am Batgirl!

**KABOOM**

And yes...I married Mr. Perfect.

***AWWWW***

I thought it was Halloween!

Who says its got to be November just to be in a costume?

Trick or Treat? Nah! I'd say it's just mere FUN!